A Dead Feeling

 A Self Reviving Thrift

"The one who defies himself, denies himself. Once and for all."

        I'm happy, am I?  the question is unreasonable, whereas I see happiness needs no reason. A relentless life with a book and story to share with yourself is much more of a self-satisfying thing. It's good to share things with your self rather than with strangers. 
     
       I won't change and rather prefer to Evolve. It's good to evolve rather than changing yourself for someone. The day you know the difference between people you'll know what's wrong and who's wrong. The thing is people are like way more obvious than they should be.

       I might be wrong today, tomorrow but not every single day.
Nothing is permanent they said, I guess they never felt the pain.
So far not so good cause pain is the primary factor in my life. 
I have claustrophobia where I don't have fear of being in a closed room with no space to get out, but I fear to be surrounded by the negative people around me and have no space to get out of it.

       Time to rehearse on my fate. I can create and I can destroy the same thing cause that's what humans do. Today I'm happy cause I found a human just hiding inside of me, the one who questions himself mostly. 

       I never felt lonely when I was alone, but now meeting some people it seems more lonely. Loneliness kills when you can't find yourself. Inner peace is what matters more than focusing on people with a different perspective.

       A self-satisfying statement I hate humans, and you do too. The difference between you and me is I can say that and you can feel and don't accept the statement.